tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3465642626648012553.post181699271642415357..comments2023-10-05T11:02:57.783-04:00Comments on Up Up, The Blog: He's a SmartyAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03753553949885480109noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3465642626648012553.post-34773903886558303682008-04-11T14:10:55.000-04:002008-04-11T14:10:55.000-04:00Oh, but I should add: I really do like teaching (I...Oh, but I should add: I really do like teaching (I just HATE the "afterhours" workload) so I could definitely see myself teaching a course or two at a community college or something once the kid (and/or kids, if we have more) are in school or something. But I don't really need my Ph.D. in hand to accomplish that; I can do it A.B.D. (all but dissertation), too.Juliehttp://letter9.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3465642626648012553.post-61433544418130675652008-04-11T04:26:29.000-04:002008-04-11T04:26:29.000-04:00I decided back in 2005 that I wasn't going to ...I decided back in 2005 that I wasn't going to pursue a career in academia. Since then I've done mentoring programs and gone to program after program on careers in academia trying to change my mind, but it's totally decided. So that makes finishing even harder. I don't think my advisor has any idea that I have no intention of pursuing the job market, mostly because I lie. : ) He does know that I decided to have a kid in the middle of my dissertation and he does know that I really enjoy said kid and he does know that I'm hardly working on it at all. But I have never EVER talked to him about the fact that I have no intention of going on the job market. Other than hints on this blog, actually, and conversations with Brian and a few friends outside academia, I have never told anyone, actually. I don't know why but I find it easier to pretend I'm pursuing a career.<br><br>So yeah. At this point I feel like it's much more about finishing what I started than it is about ANY desire to actually USE my degree, which I am starting to think is not only a bit silly but also not very productive... It's obviously not enough to motivate me to write! <br><br>But who can give up the monthly income, particularly when we literally NEED that money. And so I keep working. It kept me teaching for the last few years and it will keep me at least sort of working on my dissertation at least as long as this fellowship lasts. I can't really find another way to replace that income that still lets me stay home with Evan, you know?Juliehttp://letter9.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3465642626648012553.post-25508870353328372642008-04-10T18:08:28.000-04:002008-04-10T18:08:28.000-04:00Wow, Julie, that's a lot to think about and pr...Wow, Julie, that's a lot to think about and process. I'm not sure there's a "right" answer in this situation. I imagine your advisor knew about your ambivalence?<br><br>What comes to mind as I read what you've written is the question about what you want to be doing in a few years. Is academia your thing? Or do you envision yourself doing something else? Perhaps that only complicates matters further.Deneesehttp://dowen.livejournal.comnoreply@blogger.com